Eights in tarot are about movement. The Eight of Cups is about that moment when you say, “you know, actually…. nope” and walk away. The Eight of Pentacles is about cranking and getting shit done. The Eight of Swords is about discovering a way to free yourself in a situation that seemed hopeless.
I love the Slow Holler take on the Eight of Branches:
“The Eight of Branches indicates that you’ve become a central node in a complex network. You may be coordinating something demanding with a lot of different tasks and the need to communicate with many different folks…. Being pushed to the outer limits of your capacity is taxing but can also be empowering when you realize how much you can actually do. Take a deep breath, take care of yourself, and then buckle down for the task at hand.”
This is what my actual life feels like right now, especially my work life.
My new job feels too busy and too hard. There are so many things to keep track of, so much to do, and so much I don’t know. My relationships are changing and I need new skills to keep up. And it’s all happening so fast! In the first few weeks, I didn’t even have time to pee.
The rest of my life feels just as full and confusing and intense. Personal creative projects, collective creative projects, old and new friendships, falling in love, basic self-care, trying to figure out how to live in this world—it feels like so much.
But also… I’m fine. I’m doing it. Even though it’s often uncomfortable, I’ve got it. And a lot of it’s better than comfortable—it’s amazing.
A few years ago, I was so burned out that I could barely take care of myself. I wasn’t sure I’d ever be able to go back to work. And then when I did go back to work, for the first few months I would get home too tired to eat and pass out at six pm. I remember how hurt and traumatized and fucked up I was.
I got to heal from that, with a combination of privilege and luck and hard work.
And now I get to have this gorgeous, chaotic, scary, thrilling, heartbreaking life. I get to go hard at things that matter to me, and I'm learning how to do that in a sustainable way. I’m so, so grateful for that.