I’m feeling some Swords angst right now. Swords represent words and thought, and those things have often been a haven for me. As a little kid, I struggled to connect with others and escaped into a world of words by burying myself in books.
But my brain feels like an enemy a lot these days. It tries to protect me by telling me all the things that could go wrong, over and over and over. It tells me what trauma taught it: that I can’t trust other people, that if I am ever inconvenient I will be rejected, that my worth is based on what I offer to other people, and that the way to be loved and connected is to make myself as small as possible, to stay in my room, making no noise.
I feel so stuck in my head right now. I want to be more connected with my body and the moment and other people. I don’t have an easy answer to how to get there from here. I’m just trying stuff and seeing what happens and trying to sit with the discomfort as best I can.
So what does this Ace mean today?
What’s true is that our words and our thoughts, Swords, are neither bad nor good. They are just powerful. They can cut through the bullshit or they can cut us down. They can be kitchen knives that chop vegetables to feed us or dull pocketknives that slip and slice deep.
I think this card is saying, be bold and be careful. Know the power of your words and your thoughts. Gather up all your tools, get ready to use them, and make sure that when you do, you’re acting according to your highest values.