Monday was the spring equinox! I’ve also been thinking about Passover, which starts next month, and spring cleaning and garden bed clearing and all of the letting go and clearing out that spring inspires.
So last Sunday, after I pulled one million weeds, helped chop dead plants out of the sidewalk cracks, and cleaned my room, I did a reading for spring. Here’s the spread I created:
1. Something to keep (top left)
2. Something to remember (bottom left)
3. Something to let go (top right)
4. Something to forget (bottom right)
5. Something to invite in (far right middle)
Something to keep
Daughter of Wands. The first thing that jumped out at me in this card is the wand itself. It looks just like the quince in my front yard. I am at this very moment looking at a quince wand that is the twin of the one on the card, sitting in a jar of water on my altar! The quince is the most murderously persistent, indestructible plant I’ve ever met. It’s flexible steel with vicious thorns; a thicket that someone thought would make a pretty garden shrub. It is lovely, especially when it flowers, and it shelters birds and squirrels and lots of other critters, but it’s not a pretty little shrub. It seems to be saying, don’t let other people make you smaller than you are, don’t let anyone plant you where there’s not enough room for you to grow, and poke the shit out of anyone who won’t respect your boundaries. Be the glorious, dangerous thicket you were meant to be!
Something to remember
Son of Pentacles. Being a glorious, dangerous thicket is hard work. Figuring out where you belong, what your true shape is, and where your boundaries are—in a world that wants you to do none of those things—takes dedication and persistence. Your small, daily efforts may not be sparkly or sexy, but they are everything.
Something to let go
Four of Cups. I struggled with this one because introspection is really important to me! I think this is saying, challenge yourself to let go of some of the ratty, sad part of introspection—the isolation that isn’t serving a purpose, and the distance that keeps you from noticing opportunities for the kind of connection that will help you grow. As best you can, pay attention to what’s being offered and receive it when it’s right for you. Don’t get so wrapped up in that hard work that you miss those chances!
Something to forget
Three of Cups. This one puzzled me, not only in the context of the Four of Cups, but because I’ve been working hard to build more community in my life. But it made more sense in the context of the last card, the Two of Cups. I think the Three of Cups here means, worry less about community and more about relationships. For instance, I’ve started hosting a monthly dinner, and I notice myself worrying so much about whether it’s all coming together that I feel sort of background-frantic the whole time—even as I’m enjoying the event. But community is, at its core, relationships. So, right now... just build relationships. In the dinner party example, focus on conversations with individual people at the dinner party, and let the group stuff take care of itself.
Something to invite in
Two of Cups. One-on-one connections—new ones! New connections have felt really challenging to me lately. But I’m taking baby steps toward more connection, with a much stronger sense of who I am, how I want to be treated, what I want to receive in relationships, and what I have to offer others. This card is inviting me to take some more risks for connection’s sake. And roses—with their protective thorns (our theme is thorns!)—remind me that boundaries, and the ability to recognize and work through conflict, are essential to authentic intimacy.
Doing the hard, daily work of claiming space (always with a lens of accountability) and working with boundaries. Letting go of harmful isolation and "community building" as a an abstract concept, and instead nurturing opportunities for one-to-one, human connection. It's a lot, in a world that often feels really terrifying, but the time is now! May we work hard to learn the creativity, strength, and solidarity necessary to build a world in which all of us can grow to be everything we have the potential to be.